posting about my suicide attempt and hospitalization and being sad on tumblr has lost me 8 fucking followers. good riddance, i guess. fuck them for being insensitive little shits.

though i guess maybe i was just too triggering for them. that makes sense, then. i’m being too sensitive.


4 notes | Reblog | 5 hours ago

amazing how i’ve got almost 3,900 followers and only a tiny handful of you gave a shit when i literally attempted suicide and ended up in the hospital and then in the psych ward. sure reinforces my belief that i’m worthless and unloveable, i gotta say.

but then. why the hell do i care whether or not strangers on the internet are paying attention to me? honestly. ugh. i hate myself.

my friends in there are still there. i feel so terrible. i hope they get out soon.



26,240 notes | Reblog | 5 hours ago

lestradeisasilverfox:

Nathan Fillion is not appreciated enough.

yes he is


94,441 notes | Reblog | 5 hours ago

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305,059 notes | Reblog | 8 hours ago

@kcsplace said: aint nothing like a shower after hospitilisation is there? especially youre own shower, nobody constantly watching you or checkingyou, free to just stand there as long as you want/need. feeling clean is amazing, esp clean hair. its just so nice

SERIOUSLY. I was moaning and going “OH GOD” literally the whole time I was washing my hair and shaving my legs and putting soap on my butt. In my own shower. In my own house. With my cat watching me, meowing at the water. It was the most beautiful feeling in the world.


5 notes | Reblog | 12 hours ago

i practically orgasmed just by taking a shower. i’m now wearing makeup and heels, and feeling fucking AMAZING after the last three days of nasty ass psych ward grossness.


3 notes | Reblog | 12 hours ago

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21,753 notes | Reblog | 13 hours ago

my boyfriend ships Leo and Cole can i just -


3 notes | Reblog | 13 hours ago

coca-koala:

It’s so sad that some of the loveliest and kindest people dislike themselves a lot


639,017 notes | Reblog | 13 hours ago

obsidianembrace:

"I will hold you up when you can’t stand, I will wipe away your tears when you cry, and I will fight for you when you give up and I will love you forever and always."~Unknown


114 notes | Reblog | 13 hours ago
yooooooo, proud hospital band selfie.
proud not because of what i did.
proud because i survived and i can keep surviving.

yooooooo, proud hospital band selfie.

proud not because of what i did.

proud because i survived and i can keep surviving.


27 notes | Reblog | 13 hours ago

compasswaters:

100% of people who tell you you’re too sensitive are saying it because they don’t want to be held responsible for your reaction when they mistreat you


29,679 notes | Reblog | 14 hours ago
see? i’m just fine, now! fuck that ward.

see? i’m just fine, now! fuck that ward.


12 notes | Reblog | 14 hours ago

Back from the psych ward. :/


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